If I'm being honest, there will be part 2, part 49, part 117, and beyond of 'zoe lately' posts.
truth: I'm not good at clearly expressing my feelings and thoughts through audible sentences.
*insert close friends chuckling.*
I mean, I can hold conversations, small talk, and toss what energy and wit I have to offer into casual situations, but I'm a very internally analytical person, and am definitely self conscious when expressing serious ideas or feelings out loud to others.
I think that's something a lot of people don't truly know about me, especially if you only know me on social media, because you've never heard me try to express what I'm thinking or feeling except by reading my well thought over sentences on a screen. Yeah, I used to be a worship leader and talk to student bodies a lot, but that was all the Holy Spirit's words and direction, not my own intelligence. I was also a dance teacher, but I learned what I was talking about from someone else and could comfortably explain an already established concept.
But when it comes to a class or group where responding is encouraged, you will find I'm the quiet one. I'm not bored, not understanding, or under the impression that I'm above whatever's going on, I'm just keeping it all inside, and would only say something if I believe it was absolutely essential to contribute and produce progress. Hence why writing, blogging, typing and taking pictures *hello, no sounds there ever* are my sweet spot. It gets my insides out, but people have the choice of if they want to pay attention to it or not.
So there is the preface to these 'zoe lately' posts you'll see popping up on my blog every once in a while. These posts are when my insides finally come to a breaking point of hoarding feelings, information, and discovery - have been thoroughly processed - and need to be released. My hope is that you, the immensely significant human that you are, might just have some sort of connection to what I'm writing, an 'aha!' from what you're reading, or simply just more of an understanding of exactly how I function as a human being. Cause if I've learned anything in my 19 short years of living, it's that we're not all too different from each other when it comes to matters of the mind and heart.
so that's zoe lately.